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I am Melissa Margot Tuttle (formerly Ives).

I want to go workout, but more don't.

I have to get my hair trimmed.

I wish that I didn't have to workout and weight would just fall off.

I hate living so far from some of the best friends I have ever made.

I fear that Garrin will do something stupid and fall into a coma again, and that I won't be able to wake him up next time.

I hear Jason Mraz telling me to live mighty.

I search for a few last minute Christmas gifts.

I wonder when I lost my will power. I swear I used to be stronger.

I always am up for baking big, fat cookies.

I'm usually asleep by 9:30 pm and love it.

I'm not dressed yet, but have awesome pajama pants on.

I dance around our tiny apartment when I'm home alone.

I sing in the car like I'm putting on a concert.

I never go to bed without Garrin. We went a long time without that and now I savor it.

I rarely do laundry, that's Garrin's job.

I cry when I am SUPER excited; such as seeing Jason Mraz in concert when my tickets are front row, center.

I'm not always a good deed doer, but working on it.

I lose my patients nearly every day when I can't control inanimate objects.

I'm confused why people don't "believe" in global warming.

I need motivation. Help?

I should be checking the road report, it's icy out there.

I dream some crazy stuff.  Want to know what it is like to be a secret agent, or butler, or gorilla trainer? I can tell you.

Starting Now

There aren't very many people whose blogs I read on a regular basis. The one's at listed at the right I check in on every so often, but a few of them I read every time a new entry is posted. Because of this, I have been inspired.

I have a friend named Kjersti, whose blog is listed at right, who often writes about her struggles with weight. First and foremost, I admire the fact that she writes so candidly about a topic that most have a hard time dealing with and push to the back of their minds. Second, she inspires me (who also struggles with weight) to better myself. I work out, but not as hard as I should; it is hard to do it alone. I eat ok, but definitely not well. Over the past 2 years I have gained more weight than I am ready to admit to and am currently the least healthy I have ever been. I, like Kjersti, am not setting outlandish goals; I just want to be healthy and happy.

I am ready, starting now, to lose weight, feel better, be better and work on myself.

Thank you, Kjersti, for showing me that I am not alone with my struggle. I only wish we lived within 800 miles of each other to be healthier together. You are an inspiration to me.